Making His Return

Saturn: The Roman god most commonly associated with agriculture so I'm not really getting why he's having such a profound influnce on my life. I mean honestly, it's not like I'm a damned farmer.

Saturn, you suck.
And your return is most unwelcome.
During the course of my research I found this:

















Saturn devours his children
Francisco de Goya
which pretty much sums up what you are doing to my psyche right about now.
I have not found one pleasant account of anyone going through your return.
Actually it is widely known as the painful transition from childhood to adulthood that doesn't involve id's and legal drinking.
Yeah, this shit hurts.

I've done a whole hell of a lot of shit in my life. muMs thinks I haven't paid for most of it. I think muMs needs to go soak his head. I've paid for just about enough. I guess the restitution has paved the way for the awful return of a Lord from the greater Numina. Bringing with him six degrees of absolutely nothing as my world shrinks around me. I've been running into, becoming involved with, working with, partying with, beefing with, dancing with, ignoring somebody who knows somebody who knows me. Ugh. I thought I had long since slaughtered some of these influences with a stony smile but I was wrong. Like fucking zombies, they're back from the dead, toting peace pipes, waving white flags and wearing smiles. I don't wanna know you... that's why I left you behind.
Fucking Saturn. Carried them all here on his titan back... Sheesh.

I made a panicked phonecall where I was soundly reprimanded at a rather loud volume because 1. I thought this was a bad joke but there are volumes dedicated to the subject and 2. as much as I'd like to, apparently you can't avoid this Saturn and his accompanying plethora of "Mala/Pixie/Chick/Chameleon/Little/K, it's been a while".

But I will tell you what, Saturn, you brought a lot of heartache but you also toted along some true friendship, amazing people, dearest love and growth. So I guess I should stop complaining like the little girl you are so ruthlessly forcing me not to be and just deal with it.

You've returned & I'm not exactly thrilled but I will face you and your wrangling with my future. I hear tell you will return once more... I'll be ready for you next time.