I Figured It Out

When even he couldn't.
Poor child.

I know why it didn't work and for once it wasn't because I tend to wild out whenever the fuck I feel like it. It wasn't me. Nah, really it wasn't. But it took me a minute to see what even he didn't want to admit. And this is a throwback issue because it's such a non-issue. However, I was asked this question:
"So you're really serious?"
Yeah motherfucker. I am.
Ya ought to count yourself as lucky that I'm even talking to you.
Here goes the:
BOOM!

The excuses were tired and trifling and the translation of the excuses are as follows "I was just too lazy and didn't care enough to do what I had to do to make sure I supported you Mala." "I've just been really busy." translation "I just didn't feel like making time for you Mala" "I meant to (insert whatever the fuck here)" translation "I couldn't be bothered doing (whatever the fuck here) for you Mala" Um, that's why you got not one, but two middle fingers. And if I could have borrowed a few more digits I would have stuck them in your face too. I'm doing this on blog cause I know you hate that shit. translation "I could give a fuck how you feel motherfucker"
Hold that.
It wasn't 'til I sat down and thought about your life that the realization hit me. For all of our pretty words and intense emotions it would have never worked because motherfucker, I AIN'T WHITE.
I don't have no wella-balsam bouncin and behaving blonde hair. I'm a bald beautiful bold bitch.
My ass is not shaped by a pair of waist skimming jeans, but this you know. It's still something serious when the jeans come off.
And fucker, I've got rhythym. Y'all non-dancing fools better ask somebody.
Looked at your life and saw a running theme. A theme that I don't fit into.
Because I'm that raw black woman that might just throw a brick at your ass if you cross me.
So um... Check this out honey: don't ask me if one show ruined everything. Thank your lucky stars. You got off easy. And by the way... chase them willas all you want but chile, you ain't white either.
Check yourself.
Still got love for you because I love who I love and I always will but still...
Now I really ain't your friend for making me have to go there.

- not playing with these fools...